I will admit that there have been times when I shut myself out. But when I do, I don’t expect people to come to me. Why? Because I shut myself out. I purposefully distance myself, because I need the time to myself. I don’t do it because I want sympathy from other people. However, when times like this happen, it’s very brief. Maybe a day at most. But after that, I pick myself back up and keep moving forward.

I live in constant fear that the people around me don’t really like me. I really do. This fear does get squashed a lot, but it never really goes away. Everyone tells me they love me, though, so I try to believe it. I believe it as best as I possibly can, because everyone I choose to surround myself with are the best thing that have ever happened to me. I’d never leave them.